I have been very unproductive as far as art has been concerned in the last few weeks, and last week the explanation for this became clear. I am clinically depressed again.
This one came suddenly, and I am hoping it will go as (relatively) quickly again. I had begun a new medication to try and control migraine headaches which were occurring frequently. After enduring 2 weeks or so of start-up side-effects, I noticed that I was losing interest in my usual passions, couldn't sleep, ate a lot less and just felt more and more down and despondent and less and less able to cope. Then I was becoming tearful several times a day and everything began to look hopeless.
To cut the story short, I went to the doc, she checked my thyroid (normal) and needless to say I stopped the medication. It's been a week and a half and I think things are going back to normal, thank goodness. I'm not tearful and things are not as hopeless. I'm not jumping around for joy and motivation is still low, but I hope I'll get there.
The Inno deadline is drawing close and I need to finish some works to enter this year, so I'm working on that, but not with much gusto. I just feel empty of ideas and if you were to ask me, at *any* given time, what I would most like to do right now , my answer would be "go to bed". So I'm not back on top yet.
But I have some hope.
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