... by a jury of my peers,
Still crazy after all these years...." - Paul Simon
---- Kleenex moment coming up :) -----
Yes, I'm back, I really am. I'm me again. My wellness is sustained. I can't believe my luck; I'm grateful, tearful, awed, peaceful, jubilant and did I mention grateful?
As I wrote last time, it's phenomenal what the right combination of medications can do. The enormous pharmaceutical industry may be all about the bottom line, with less-than-ethical tricks, corruption, counterfeiting, blatant profiteering and many other dubious practices, but this aside, drug development is also about improving peoples' lives and treating "the heartache and the thousand natural shocks, that flesh is heir to". (Shakespeare) And some may say that psychiatric drugs are heavy-duty, dangerous, harm you more than they heal and are therefore 'bad'; well, all I can say is I'll take this 'bad, dangerous, whatever', over the hell of the last 8 months ANY DAY.
When you're on the receiving end of a drug that works for you, that works in such a way as to enable you to pick yourself up again, that restores you to to yourself and that literally gives you your life back, it's... well... dare I say it, miraculous. Within just a few weeks of starting to take it, I wasn't depressed any more, I could think rationally again, I could think CREATIVELY again. I'm so deeply impressed. Just a little tweaking of some neurotransmitters in my brain! And I'm not high, I'm not a zombie, I'm not crazy, I'm not anything other than just 'me'! -- {laughing}, okay, some may say the 'not crazy' is debatable, but hey, this is a craziness I can live with!
I'm back to my art. I've finished 2 of my UFOs - UnFinished Objects - and had an idea for a new 'object'. I have to find my camera and take pics, so I can show them here. I have an inordinate number of things I have to catch up with again, not least of which is to find a job! Some days I'm daunted and I have to remind myself that Rome wasn't rebuilt in a day. I just won't be posting as much, that's all.
One thing at a time, I'll get there. I have a fighting chance now... :)
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Wonderful news Karen. 8 months is a long time. I wish you all the best for the right job coming up soon. In the mean time take some photos of your art and share :-)
welcome back - long may you stay you. and may your periods of creative slump be no more unusual than any of us suffer at the end of a long week.
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