Problem - works are intensely personal

I have a problem with the works that have been pouring from me, since I saw Ines. They are intensely personal and private. They have words written on them, which I haven't done before, but that makes them very revealing of what is happening with me. And I am not ready to talk about what happened.

So I can "publish" them here, but not on my Facebook page. When will I feel comfortable about showing them? I don't know. Maybe everything just needs to settle within me first. I'll go back to finish my course and let them trickle out to the world, slowly. I will keep making what I can manage (there are still many I've conceived ideas for, already), but I don't plan to show them anywhere but here.

I'm just not comfortable talking about how I had a spiritual experience and feel back in touch with the world of spirit and that which is greater than ourselves. I didn't get "born again" or "saved", I didn't hear God speak to me. I didn't see or meet God. I'm not some incarnation of anybody, or have any special mission (beyond the one we all have, to be good, kind human beings).

What I did feel, was a sense of the presence of what I think of as my Spirit Guide, in my mind. I conceive her as a being of light, in human form. All white light, but a warm, muted white light, not the harsh kind of white light that blinds your eyes. I cannot see her face, but she radiates great patience, gentleness and love. She has soft hands and places her fingers very gently on my eyelids when I cry, to soothe them. She stands behind me and puts her hands on my shoulders to infuse me with her light. It has been incredibly healing and it feels like a sort of home-coming to reconnect with a world of what is greater than our physical senses perceive. She is enough proof to me that the spirit world is real. I didn't conjure her up. She popped into my mind, but she didn't come from inside myself. She came to me in a trance, listening to a self hypnosis recording, Ines has on her website. 

http://selfhypnosis.esdaileinstitute.com/self-hypnosis-module-3-2/advanced-self-hypnsosi-approaching-the-spiritual

I listen to those 2 recordings on this page almost every day. I spend some time listening, trying to sense what she has to tell me. She doesn't speak, but thoughts pop up in my head from her.

What has also made me know this is real, are the incredible synchronicities occurring everywhere, now. I was watching a YouTube video about someone who had a Near-Death Experience and suddenly he said something, which spoke so directly to what I am living right now, I said out loud "you're talking to me right now, aren't you?" I stopped the tape. Three words: Gratitude, Faith, Compassion.

Then there's the fact that, just yesterday, I was offered the opportunity to buy a complete, well-functioning clinic right here, once I finish my course. Space, equipment, health department provider number and client base. All I need to do is take bookings and start working. It's startling, very startling. But that is a story for another post.

So many other things just seem to happen and become apparent, because I am receptive, listening and watching, intuiting. Seeming co-incidences, but they're not. All quite mind-blowing and while I am still busy with integrating everything, I am not willing to talk openly about it to anyone around me.

So the work will be kept under wraps and released gradually, once I feel comfortable with my new (regained) world view.